Posts Tagged ‘addiction’

Helpless

Posted: September 16, 2013 in Uncategorized
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I dig for that one thing
That one thing you don’t even really understand
Yet it calls you and you call back
It’s the calling for something even greater
A burning so deep in you that you loose control
It has you by the hand gently
Soon it grabs both shoulders
All of a sudden it has you around the neck
All you can do is obey
Do it again, you say yes
Again, you say yes again
Visit family today, your neck won’t let you
Soon it is just you and it around your neck
The addiction is in full swing

400th Post

Posted: August 9, 2013 in Uncategorized
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Still on week three of this blog. And This is the 400th post. That’s good. However, I really need to do something with my life. Oh wait I am… Hmmm….. Maybe it will slow down at college next week. 🙂

I know what you’re thinking 

And that won’t stop me from destroying myself 

It is really all I can do now

And you are still standing by my side

You are the confused one 

Not me

This is how I find my peace

He didn’t belong in society, yet here he was today living in society. Every one had the same reaction, after all his looks told his story. He had tattoos running up both arms and legs. The man should have been wearing pants and long sleeve shirt, but then again that would be pointless if you had tattoos. For the public though it would have been nice. Multiple studs in his ears and one on his tongue and lip. No one really knew his real identity, but making guesses were fun and easy. Parents divorced and that turned his life around for the worst. Lost all love from the event, so decided pumping chemicals into him would be better. Later came the tattoos, which each tattoo was caused by an extreme anger. A time or moment that he had to get something out, so inscribing ink on your body solves the problem. In a couple years he is covered in tattoos and is lucky that his newfound friends of chemicals haven’t killed him yet. The reality is he is lost, but doesn’t know it. Maybe a better word is tricked; tricked into believing this is the way out. A story like that is what most of us will see and believe without really acknowledging it. It doesn’t matter, it is just human behavior. What if I said this man or demon, depressed piece of garbage had a talent. Not a talent that is viewed as negative, but an accepted talent. Maybe a great drawer, a great actor, or maybe great at difficult puzzles? Yes he is. If only he could further pursue those talents and stay away from the first two. But probably the first two are now an addiction. Two hard things about an addiction. First just doing it for the first time, whatever it is. You have the urge to try. And I‘m talking about unhealthy addictions. So the urge to just try to see how it feels. I mean after all bad things surround us. Sometimes it is almost like they want us to do bad things, right? Movies always have that cool appearing kid who does bad things. The urge is very powerful, but your soul eventually will break and when it does the floodgates have opened. Hopefully the first time you don’t drown the gates. If you are still alive, chances are your going to slowly try again. Soon the time in-between will decrease. The addiction has started. If only someone told him he was unique and special. Maybe someone did, but it was too late. Let’s continue on the example before about our guess on his life even though we do not know him at all, just what he looks like. Don’t you think if a man dresses that way he feels happy? Everyday we decide what to wear. Many factors come into play. What is the weather? Who will I see today? What am I doing today? Where am I going? Many more, but you get the idea I hope. We associate these types of human beings at school causing trouble. So lets say this man is 18 and a senior in high school. These factors are now narrowed down substantially. What classes do I have today? Will I see Rachel today? Who do I want impress? And so on. The outlook is positive with a little stress hidden in. So he chooses to wear shorts that are funky and a t-shirt that has a bad phrase on it and bracelets that are offsetting. If anything he is the most unique student at the high school. As a kid you want to stand out and feel good about yourself. Maybe the looks he gets tells him they are noticing him. If the logic is correct our first analysis of him can be expunged. And remember this tattoo man has a talent. He has a talent and in high school was the most unique. Sounds like so far a good life.    

Random thoughts

Posted: July 30, 2013 in Uncategorized
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This day 7 of my blog. It’s almost been a full week, and I’m addicted to my blogging haikus! I really need to slow down. I knew I liked poetry, but not this much. Well this is the first and last week of so many posts.

I dig for that one thing
That one thing you don’t even really understand
Yet it calls you and you call back
It’s the calling for something even greater
A burning so deep in you that you lose control
It has you by the hand gently
Soon it grabs both shoulders
All of a sudden it has you around the neck
All you can do is obey
Do it again, you say yes
Again, you say yes again
Visit family today, your neck won’t let you
Soon it is just you and it around your neck
The addiction is in full swing